Are you playing the long game?

In my second blog: Read your obituary every day, I wrote about reminding yourself of mortality and living as though today’s your last day. But I had forgotten about the extreme point which is also very important to be aware of. That is Longevity.

Almost all the legends, all the world-class A-players of life have this one thing in common. That is, they stay in long enough in their fields that eventually, the compound effect of their works brings them the ultimate success they deserve. People like Mark Zuckerberg, who became a billionaire by age 23, are exceptions to this. But those are very rare case scenarios.

Like how the reminder of mortality is important, there’s equivalent importance to ensure your longevity. By just living longer, you get a lot of unfair advantage, as you get a lot of experiences and which in turn makes you a great storyteller and the master of your craft, what else do you need. You’ll be able to see the beauty of the compound effect unfold in your life. The years of dedication and focused work seem to suddenly give an explosion of rewards. But it’s not just living longer that brings you these rewards, of course, it does, but it’s the resilience/grit that’s responsible for this. Simply living longer doesn’t guarantee anything but being resilient towards your work and goals will surely ensure the magic pot of the compound effect.

I mentioned in the last blog (I Quit) itself that for the past month or so, the universe had been trying to tell something to me, and that was resilience, grit. That blog was more of a personal note to myself, and this blog is a gentle, yet strong reminder for you to check your grit meter!

Yes, in other words, ask this question to yourselves: ARE YOU PLAYING THE LONG GAME? Are you making your choices based on the assumption that you’ll reap the benefits of the work you do now reaps results right away, or are you making choices that will bring you an immense bounty of rewards in the future? It’s the same as in a stock market, time in the market wins over timing the market. It applies to your whole life, not only finance. You need not do what’s trendy. Just visualize yourself in the future, maybe 10 years or 20 years from now, how would you want to be living your life? What are the accomplishments do you think should be filled in your past?

And based on that long-term visualization, make choices and act now! And I know by experience, that it is hard to be resilient even when you are not seeing any results in the present, but just keep going! And also, it is statistically proven that the most common losing strategy is by giving up early, very early. People tend to quit or let go very quickly and stop pursuing their dreams and goals. Only a few people have enough grit to sustain no matter the circumstance and that will be the only few people who succeed.

And by having this long-term perspective, you are also converging and hence conserving your energy. Because, when you are deciding to whether take up a new pursuit or not, simply ask this question – How long am I willing to do this? Am I willing to do this till I die? If yes, then amazing! And congratulations, you’ll never lose and hence you win! If not, then you have to move on and try something else that you can do for a lifetime. By doing this, you saved a lot of energy, you didn’t get into something that would eventually fail because you lack grit towards it. It might be anything that you’re creating, a business, art, craft, it might be your YouTube channel.

Ok, let me ask you again – ARE YOU PLAYING THE LONG GAME? ARE YOU WILLING TO WORK ON YOUR CRAFT TILL YOU DIE? If you answered no, stop that task right away and move on! Move on to the task that you’re passionate about enough to be resilient, to do it over and over again till you die! If you answered yes, congratulations! You’ve already won, just keep going!

Thank You,

Yours Loving,

Sanath Kumar Naibhi

I Quit!

For the past month or so I’ve been dabbling with situations that are pushing me to quit! To quit everything! Situations that have made my brains ask questions like why exist? After all that you’ve been doing, nothing works, nobody cares, then why do, why do you even exist?

Oh wait, I thought this blog was going to be a ‘feel-good’ vibes, but it is somehow taking shape as spreading awareness of both the growth and the darker side of being creative. The low-feel days, the identity crisis and the growth side that follows it, the awareness and enlightening curve after those crises and setbacks.

Ok continuing my narration, amidst all those situations, negative thoughts, and emotions that I was sinking deep in, as usual, something miraculous was happening too, I sensed the universe was trying to convey something else but I wasn’t sure of it. I finished reading “The Everyday Hero Manifesto” book by Robin Sharma, yesterday. And my eyes got stuck on this phrase – DO GOOD ANYHOW. I was amazed initially knowing about it, but then as we humans have the natural tendency to forget, I forgot about it.

Then Life threw another scenario at me that would push me to ask those questions that I mentioned earlier [above]. My whole identity seemed to be worthless. What happens if you could do all the work you wanted to do and people hate for you for the not-so-social person you are? what if everybody hates despite having loads and loads of work done to serve the community? And who cares if you write a book when they think you are not even eligible to do that? So many, so many questions like these popped into my head. But I still didn’t realize what the universe was trying to convey. I even wrote all these situations in my journal, and still didn’t get it. Of course, I got a few takeaways like I’ve to improve on my communication skills, and that I’m still 21 and have a long way to go, which I forget very often, and that we are all perfectly imperfect beings and constantly correcting ourselves is part of the process for everyone, but still didn’t get the core message the universe was trying to tell me.

Then all of a sudden, just recently, everything snapped into its place. It was trying to convey RESILIENCE! GRIT! Whatever you call it. It was actually trying to convey something that it had already slapped to my eyes – “DO GOOD ANYHOW”. It was trying to say – “Be Good Anyhow, no matter what”. At that moment I realized how stupid I was not to see it a little earlier. And to be honest, this happened just now, hence I’m writing this even though this is not the blog I had planned to write for today.

Soon, seconds and minutes after that, more and more dots connected together. All the situations, thoughts, and emotions I was going through led to the same inference – DO GOOD ANYHOW, BE GOOD ANYHOW, no matter what. And a reflection note I wrote a few days ago came back to connect with the existing web of pointers already proving the same.
“Balance exists. Just because the ideal state is or seems unattainable, doesn’t mean you’ve to abandon the direction itself.”

All in all, all these set of situations, thoughts, and emotions I’ve been through in the last month has proved to make me even stronger, and that is what it was trying to say, to become stronger, to become even more resilient, to not stop for whatever’s on the way and no matter what DO GOD ANYHOW!

Thank You,
Yours Loving,
Sanath Kumar Naibhi

Monthly Book Recommendations

The monthly Book recommendation is a short blog post/ newsletter I write to you on what books I read in the previous month and what I’ll be reading next. This month I could read 5 books.

Books I read in September 2021:

  1. Rework by David Heinemeier Hansson and Jason Fried. If you are a business owner or plan to be one, this is a must read. Very simple and easy to read but yet filled with wisdom nuggets for entrepreneurs. From start up, employing, work culture, etc covers almost everything related to starting and running a business. But ofcourse reading business books doesn’t in no way qualify you for the job, you’ll have to start, and learn on the way. The author emphasize on the fact that why even small businesses are and can be a great business.
  2. High Performance habits by Brendon Burchard. Good book but lengthy. This book brings you clarity on what are the characteristics of a high performance habits. Clarity, energy, necessity, productivity, influence and courage. These are the things you’ve to work on, and you must adopt habits that brings you these qualities into your life.
  3. So Good They Can’t Ignore You by Cal Newport. A motivational book. This book tries to and successfully transforms your mindset into a positive and growth oriented one. The author argues and makes you believe that most of success comes from working, working towards constantly improving your craft or skill.
  4. How To Talk To Anyone by Leil Lowndes. Useful book but not all of it. And some tips are irrelevant or doesn’t work in a country like India. The author has written tips with western culture perspective. And especially for a country like India where we have a holistic clusters of regional languages and cultures, the tips and tricks seem completely irrelevant. But the principles he offers of how we are communicating even without speaking a word is very helpful. I hope I’ll find its usage in the future by actually trying and experimenting with the methods.
  5. Mindset by Dr.Carol Dweck.  A good book for beginners. If you are just diving into the world of self improvement, you must consider this book to be one of the first you read. However, it’s not that intersting for someone who’s already known about fixed and growth mindset and to someone who understands clearly the big picture, life. And moreover, when there is clarity, there’s no picture of fixed and growth mindset. You’ll always opt for what’s the best according to your awareness. And when your awareness is high, you’ll definitely choose growth. No question of fixed mindset there.

Enjoyed reading all of them. Now let’s come to my book list for next month.

Books I plan on reading next:

  1. The Everyday Hero Manifesto by Robin Sharma (The most anticipated).
  2. Attitude Is Everything
  3. Wellness Sense
  4. Power of positive thinking
  5. Influence
  6. Quiet

My Book Update:

  • Not so much work has been done in terms of words written. But definitely a decent amount of work done in terms of bridging the gap in between concepts by stitching the story together.
  • Got an idea for an emotional parallel connection in the story.
  • Got an idea to end the story with a surprise!
  • Got an idea to add an element of interest throughout the narration.
  • Totally, great going! I’m also researching about all the aspects of publishing, marketing, etc. And probably my book will be released on December or January.

Let me know what are you reading currently and what are your favorite books of all time!

Thank You,

Yours Loving,

Sanath Kumar Naibhi

Steve Jobs’s Distortion Field

Reality distortion field is a term first used by Bud Tribble at Apple Computer in 1981, to describe company co-founder Steve Jobs’ charisma and its effects on the developers working on the Macintosh project. Steve Jobs’s “reality distortion field” was a personal refusal to accept limitations that stood in the way of his ideas, to convince himself that any difficulty was surmountable. This “field” was so strong that he was able to convince others that they, too, could achieve the impossible.

I like to call it the distortion field, eliminating the “reality” word from it. And the distortion field is actually, that which disrupts people’s existing beliefs that are limiting them and push them hard to see the truth and grow. In fact it should be called the delusion distortion field as it is helping people come out of delusions.

Ok, let’s forget about naming it appropriately. Through today’s blog what I wanted to convey is that, please push your friends, your family towards growth. Push them off the cliff so they’ll realize they have the ability to fly, (metaphorically). Disrupt their belief systems and thoughts, all in order to help them grow in whatever way they’ve chosen.

Many might not like you for it, but don’t bother, because your intent is for their growth. And that’s what it takes to be your friend or colleague or whatever relationship they are in with you. Not to brag, I feel I’m a natural at this, a tower constantly creating a distortion field around the people close to me. If you’re one of my closest ones, you already know how much I’ve impacted you by now. I take being in any kind of relationship, especially friendships and colleague-ship [ 🙂 ], gives me an opportunity to serve them, leave them better than you found them. As soon as I believe in someone, even a little, I start sharing my skills, knowledge, interests, moreover, my passion. I then take up collaboration projects with them even when they’re not that willing. I somehow make sure there’s so much to speak every day and that helps both ends of the relationship. And all this is happening naturally, I’m not consciously taking each step as I’ve told above. But I’m aware I do that. Ok, forget about me.

What I’m trying to say is have this one rule or principle or values, whatever you may call it, in your mind, always! And that is, Leave people better than you found them. And as I said, many might hate you for it, but some will recognize the benefits of being with you, they’ll secretly start enjoying being with you, because deep inside, everybody is happiest when they’re growing and you’re helping them do that.

Serving is our duty. How you serve is subjective and depends on your passion and skills. But the principle of leaving people better than you found them is a universal guide. Everyone can do that and must try to do that. Teach what you know well, Share what you’re passionate about, inspire them to move ahead, or sometimes it might just be to listen to a person with at most attention. Leave people better than you found them!

Thank you,

Yours Loving,

Sanath Kumar Naibhi

Why You Create What You Create?

In the last blog, I wrote why it’s important to create and share. This blog might help you figure out what is that you love to create that brings meaning and fulfillment to your life.

Ok, let’s start with – What’s it that I create? I create work that brings meaning to my life. The work I put out to the world will somehow become a part of my identity. And part of my identity is to be unique, to be original.

I know in one perspective, there’s nothing truly original. But that shouldn’t stop anyone from trying to be as original as possible, trying to be as unique as possible.

The fact that somehow my identity has the character to be original is that which does not let me go mainstream, or in simple words, I do not let myself make ‘just another cover video’. It’s not that I haven’t tried that ever, I’ve tried few times. It just didn’t make any sense, couldn’t find meaning in doing it, wasn’t fulfilled, don’t remember the process of creating it, only remember the parts where I was adding the elements of true creativity. And that character to be original is there in you, it’s in everyone!

I mean, why should I create something that I’m not proud of. I’m not saying you must only create the best work and until you’re not ready you must not Create, all I’m saying is at any point in time, you can create the best work you can.

I think answering these questions might help in bringing some clarity to why you’re doing something.
Why are you creating what you are creating?
If you’re given a billion dollars right now, would you still be doing it?
If you have only another 6 months to live, would you still be doing it? Will it bring meaning and fulfillment to you?

The reality is like a coin with two faces. On one side, we’re nothing, we are not even a speck of dust in this vast universe. On the other side, nobody else can be you. You are unique. So make it a point that you completely show your Self, your uniqueness through your creative work before you die. That’s what is the duty of an artist. An artist’s duty is to make his creative thoughts, emotions, memory, and any form of self-expression into a tangible piece of work – an artwork. And remember, everybody is an artist. Everyone has an artist living deep inside.

Finally, I would like to leave you with this:
I encourage you to take this challenge: Create something that means a lot to you. Create something just for your Self, not for what’s trendy for YouTube or Instagram’s algorithm. Something very unique that only you could create (Not just another ‘cover video’) Something original. And then share it on your social media platform and tag me, I’ll re-share it. Use #original #creativechallenge #trulycreative. You can also tag and nominate your friends to participate in this challenge and by that you are not only pushing yourself to be creative but also helping your friends do the same.

Thank You
Yours Loving,
Sanath Kumar Naibhi

Are you truly an artist?

Who is an artist? The standard definition would be this: A person who creates art (such as painting, sculpture, music, or writing) using creative imagination.

Yes, being in the loop of consistently creating something out of creativity is the 1st and most important criteria that qualify someone as an artist. An artist’s duty is to make his creative thoughts, emotions, memory and any form of self-expression into a tangible piece of work – an artwork.

But I believe that creating should be followed by sharing! Creativity is about experience and expression. Creativity is about serving! Sharing your work is that force that fulfills all of these ways of seeing creativity.

So my definition would be this: An artist is one who constantly serves himself and the world through his creativity and imagination.

CREATE and SHARE! If you’re not doing that, I know it might seem harsh, but, you’re not truly an artist! Creating merely qualifies you as an artist but sharing ensures you’re staying true to that qualification. By sharing you’re truly being an artist. And it’s also true that if you’ve created something truly creative, then the automatic tendency would be to share it with people, right?

The 2 trends I’m currently seeing:

1. First trend (Skilled but not creating): People get skilled in some kind of art form and never attempt to create and share anything truly out of their creativity and imagination. They keep their art for themselves. At most, they may try to share one or 2 pieces of work a year. In other words, they are satisfied and settled with the incentives and benefits that the skill has got them. Being skilled is not enough, the society may revere you for being skilled, but don’t stop there, do not settle, seek to serve by creating something out of your creativity, you’ll be fulfilled. Beethoven was not just an exceptionally skilled pianist, he was that and was revered for that, but he lives till today because of what he created! Right? Sri Tyagaraja was not just a highly skilled vocalist, he is revered to this day because of his compositions which were the byproduct of his true creativity – self-expression (which was bhakthi here).

2. Second trend: People, skilled or unskilled create and share a lot of work, but all to gain traction. Merely to gain fame and/ or money. They are not trying to be true to their creative self. Is there not any difference between mere imitation/copying and creating something original?

Creativity is not just a skill or just another job you do, please try not to see it that way.

I encourage you not to be part of any of these 2 trends instead stay true to the creative genius in you. Take the best of both these trends! Get skilled, create work truly by your creativity and share to serve more. If you start seeing creativity in this perspective you’ll never feel sad, burnt out, left out, anxious to beat your competitors because you won’t have competitors as you’re making something truly out of your creativity and nobody else can be you.

For better understanding, you can try visualizing this – 3 dimensions.

** It’s about to get nerdy!**

Imagine this 3 axis graph:

  1. Skill Level ( If plotted with time as x-axis, you’ll have a curve that plateaus at some point and stays at the same level)
  2. Staying true to your creative genius ( You can’t measure creativity quantitatively but you can definitely indicate its presence, so its graph would be like a square wave, On or Off State: Creatively blocked or Creativity overflowing)
  3. Sharing Your Work ( Only this is the dimension that can be measured and you can even attempt to make a linear increasing straight line)

See, the skill level is just one dimension of the three that qualifies you as a true artist. The spot where you stand in this 3D graph tells a lot about you as an artist, use it to grow in which you’re lacking.

Consider this the wake-up call for all artists! You’re worth being called an artist, only if you’re doing the duty of an artist! CREATE and SHARE!

Thank You,

Yours Loving,

Sanath Kumar Naibhi

Monthly Book Recommendations

The monthly Book recommendation is a short blog post/ newsletter I write to you on what books I read in the previous month and what I’ll be reading next. This month I could read 6 books.

Books I read in August 2021:

  1. Steal Like An Artist by Austin Kleon: Easily, the favorite book of the month. By this book, I complete the trilogy of books by Austin Kleon. He is an author admire so much. Love his books. But I love his second book (of the trilogy) – Show Your Work!, maybe because I read that first. Steal like an artist is a great book, but I recommend reading it before reading any of his other books so that you won’t have high expectations.
  2. Karma by Sadhguru: An amazing spiritual book. Through this book, Sadhguru demystifies the concept of Karma, and busts one of the greatest myths, and clarifies that karma is not about leaving your future to fate, instead, it is about taking control of what’s in your hands. Sadhguru has also given insights into how Karma works? What is an allocated Karma? It’s you who choose your parents, and the concept of Karma as memory, etc. A very helpful book if you are someone who is trying to improve yourself in all aspects, trying to live fulfilled lives, and if you believe in spirituality.  
  3. The Compound Effect by Darren Hardy: I thought I’ll never buy this book because I already knew the concept of the compound effect. But it turns out I needed this book, so very well written. It clarifies the concept and as well gives enough examples and also explains how when you are making good changes, you might not see immediate results but once the momentum picks up, you’ll start seeing massive results/changes due to the compound effect. He also mentions how the influences- your friends, colleagues, people you be with play a major role in your life and how even that when compounded can either make or break your life. Overall, good book.
  4. Psycho-Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz: It’s a psychology/neurology book written by a plastic surgeon. A great book! The author, since he is a plastic surgeon, has first-hand experience seeing various patients and how their self-image changes or does not after the plastic surgery. And how some patients do not really require surgery but some help in transforming their self-image. In fact, it is not transforming, it is discovering the true self-image. And not just that, he explains how our brain works, the automatic creative mechanism, how we must sometimes let go and let the automatic creative mechanism do its job. Really a great book by an author who has first-hand experience in the practical world and as well as the wisdom to know that there is something (God) beyond Science.
  5. The Archer by Paulo Coelho: Omg, I love these kinds of books – short books packed with ultimate wisdom and that too in the form of a story. After The Alchemist, this itself is the second book I’m reading, written by Paulo Coelho. Incredibly satisfying. Packed with wisdom. In the book, the author narrates a story where Tetsuya a great retired archer teaches a boy the art of archery. And through that explains life. In short words, Bow is life, the arrow is your intentions. One of my favorite sentences from the book is this- A bow is useless without an arrow. Ah!. This book has a lot to offer than how it seems. It’s not just merely a short story of an archer, it’s wisdom for life. Recommend reading it twice. Other books in this category would be Jonathan Livingston Seagull and Illusions by Richard Bach.
  6. The One Thing: I didn’t want to order this book, it turns out I was right! This is a decent book but in parts, is skewed to see only with that narrow perspective in mind. And the author goes to the extent to say there doesn’t exist balance, discipline, just to make his case. Just because the ideal balanced isn’t reachable, that doesn’t mean you’ve to abandon the direction/path itself. The one thing is definitely a good concept. If there’s one thing you can do to improve your life, what would it be? Just do that. Find your one thing in every aspect of life and work towards it.

Enjoyed reading all of them. Now let’s come to my book list for next month.

Books I plan on reading next:

  1. So Good They Can’t Ignore You by Cal Newport
  2. How To Talk To Anyone by Leil Lowndes
  3. Quiet by Susan Cain
  4. Mindset by Dr. Carol S. Dweck
  5. Rework by Jason Fried & David Heinemeier Hansson
  6. High-Performance Habits by Brendon Burchard

My Book Update:

  •  A lot of work got done this month! 
  • I can almost say the first draft is complete. Yes, all the core concepts are done! But, of course, I keep adding and removing things as my intuition guides me.
  • Things remaining to work on – Story, my quotes, more of my reflections, backing my concepts with external resources.
  • I’ve also written an afterword and author’s note mentioning how this book has transformed my own life!
  • Very excited to go for a second round!

Let me know what are you reading currently and what are your favorite books of all time!

Thank You,

Yours Loving,

Sanath Kumar Naibhi

Collaboration – An artist’s super power

Really, that’s true. When you alone have the ability to make something amazing by tapping into your creativity, just imagine multiplying the same effect. Just imagine multiplying your imagination and creativity n times. And that’s exactly what collaboration brings you, it gives you the opportunity to multiply the imagination and creativity that you get to put into your work. It’s like adding multi-core processors to your PC. And that, is definitely a superpower, don’t you think?

And not only that more creativity is brought into the drawing board but also each person belonging to the collaboration gets a lot to learn from working together. And that’s a big bonus, right?

And to top it all off, collaborating with other artists gives you the opportunity to reach wider audiences, here – the audience of the other artist. What else does an artist want right? He/she wants to serve his art to more and more people.

But of course, there are few cons to a collaboration. Mainly, during any collaboration, there will be some creativity/ideas compromised by each member of the team/band. And sometimes you may also feel frustrated if the band you’re currently working with is not suitable for your type of mindset. But I think if you just let that little ego for a while, you’ll have an amazingly creative work produced via that collaboration.

And anyway, the pros of collaborating very easily beats the cons of the same. So, I encourage every artist to seek to work on collaborations as much as possible. This not only gives you great quality work on your portfolio but also increases the quantity of work you produce per year. And the more quantity = the better quality work you can produce eventually because of what you’ve gathered through the journey because you’ll now be able to apply what you’ve learned from doing those 10 projects to one of your own projects. And that is incredible just to think of! Isn’t it? So I really encourage you to reach out to an artist that you feel you are comfortable working with and pitch an idea for a collaboration.

If you are thinking – ” Why should I ask him/her?”, or ” what if he/she thinks that I don’t have other projects that I’m working on”, then your ego has already started eating you.

But no worries, as I always say, once you realize/get aware of your weak spots, you can heal them.

Remember collaboration is not about you, it’s about the art. Creativity itself is not about the artist, it’s about the art, it’s about serving people with what you’ve been given by the creator. Where’s the space for your ego there. There’s no space for ego in Creativity. You already know the quote – art is greater than the artist, why not practice it!

Go ahead, ask one artist you love to work with. Do as many collaborations as possible and that itself will bring massive collective growth to the artist’s community. And of course, more art is served to people. What else do you need? I hope you take action immediately!

Thank You,
Yours Loving,
Sanath Kumar Naibhi

Delusions – Part 2

I think the concept of delusion has stuck with me. And the more I see, the more I write. Here’s the last blog on delusions for at least this month : )

Forget the idea that being evil is the right way, forget bad is good because it shouldn’t have made it into your mind in the first place. Come out of this delusion that you have to be a hack to become successful. (Hack: a person who produces banal and mediocre work in the hope of gaining commercial success in the arts). Sure that works well, but being authentic, truly creative, artistic, and working honestly also brings success, the route may be more time-consuming and with more humps along the way but the success is worth it more than the success you get being a hack. Moreover, forget success, focus on fulfillment.

And sure, it seems so attractive to believe that, in fact, I was about to believe the same, but I realized soon that as soon as you believe in something, your life will happen according to that belief. Like how I’m now seeing people in delusions everywhere : ) But of course, I myself have been in many of the delusions I’ve mentioned in the blog.

We poor beings who call ourselves sapiens (meaning wise in Latin), when we aren’t even aware of how our own old thoughts, emotions, and habits are manipulating us right now, people come to conclusions such as “It was right when I was a bad guy”. And when life is trying to teach you something that can change your life forever, you still stick on to the old perspective and again make the wrong conclusions(The opposite of what the universe is trying to say to you). In fact, the reason why you feel this is because, take whatever “good” habits, for example, exercising, reading books, making art, daily rituals, saving money, whatever, initially life may become worse, it seems as though this was a wrong decision.

And this is because the path that is the most worth traveling is always the hardest one to travel in. It takes more to be a monk than to be a criminal. But it’s worth it.

But once you realize it and bring clear meaning to that struggle and pain, then all of it will turn into points of happiness, everything normalizes.

And moreover, there is another misconception that I like to bust. Just because there is no rich guy around you who has earned in an honest way, doesn’t mean you can’t be the one. And just because the people around you won’t value the good in you as much as the money you earn, doesn’t mean you have to value money over your goodness. Choose wisely.

Practical tips: Again humility and self-introspection. Self-introspect and if it turns out you were wrong about something, be happy, you are growing! I’ve been wrong about many things and I’ve accepted my ignorance and believe me it’s worth it. It takes a lot of humility to smash your strongly built ego, but again, it’s worth it.

Thank you,
Your loving,
Sanath Kumar Naibhi

Believe | Faith | Hope

In blog 7: God?, I tried to explain to you logically, why there is god, why you have to believe him. I think that explanation was enough for your logical mind to believe his presence. But even if your logical mind accepts there is god, you may still find believing and having faith in him difficult. If not for you, at least I have faced those difficulties. Even though sharing this is a little bit uncomfortable for me, I decided to be completely transparent anyway.

When I was a young kid, I used to believe in everything. I believed everything my parents told, teachers taught, friends mentioned, my brother, sister, everything I heard. Fortunately, I was influenced in positive ways. That kid me believed in god, creativity, mastery, imagination, whatnot. And I believe the success I have now is the fruit of that young kid who truly believed. But then, when I grew older, probably in my mid-teens, my identity started taking shape. But I wanted to ensure that I was not in any kind of delusion. I wanted to make sure my belief systems were near to reality. So I destroyed everything that seemed irrational, illogical. I became an atheist listening to an atheist but being conscious of it. I destroyed god in my belief system. Of course, I destroyed other beliefs which turned out to be delusional. Faith is like cancer, the opposite of faith is also the same. As soon as I lost faith in God, I started losing faith in the creative process, I started thinking about everything in terms of logic. Creativity does not breed in such kind of mental space. So I didn’t get any great ideas in those periods. I thought about money a lot, fame a lot, I started believing that no matter what I have to make money, or else I won’t survive, I believed that creativity won’t help me earn money. What if I don’t have any students to teach music? What if I have no clients to work on? What if I have no concerts to get paid from? These were the thoughts of disbelief and hopelessness that sept into my mind.  

By this time, I became frustrated and frustrated. I was unhappy. Then I decided to work on making myself happy. I realized I was using too much of my brain but no amount of heart. Even though I proved god exists in my logical brain, I was still unhappy because even though my brain knew, I still didn’t completely believe in him. I had forgotten for a while that intelligence cuts you from inside if you use it the wrong way, for wrong problems that intelligence is not good at solving. Faith, belief, hope, any kind of belief for that matter, is not the logical brain’s business to manage. You need the other half brain, the illogical one, the creative one, the one which has characteristics of what we call heart.

As soon as I realized all these and that my heart-set which was very weak was being thrashed by the logical brain, that these two were at war with each other, I started taking action. I knew immediately that I had to somehow make the heart win the war. I literally ordered my brain, see this is not your field, so don’t even dare to raise your voice here. Faith, belief, hope is where the heart shines, so leave that to it, if you won’t, I’ll die. And if I die, you won’t exist, stupid brain!

As soon as I did that, the human brain’s most powerful instinct is to survive, and that kicked in! More than half of my problems had gone right away! Almost all disbeliefs vanished. The next step I took is to do something for the heart that the logical brain thinks is ridiculous. I started chanting OM Namo Bhagavathe Vasudevaya. To make it even harder for the logical brain, I typed the same chant on my PC at least 1008 times. (I still keep that typed file). Belief, hope, faith, everything just started coming back to how I was when I was a kid but even stronger and clear. As I said even in the last blog – “Only the person who can destroy his belief system and rebuild a fresh one can grow”.

And as a result, my creative side started flourishing! Great ideas started to implode in my mind. I started to believe in the creative process. I believed creativity is a gift God has given me and creating something out of it is the way to serve him. And even the universe ( The god) started showing many synchronicities. Everything started to fall in its place. I believe, the only thing you’ve to do is to work on what you think god ( you can consider god as your deeper self) assigned you to do. Just Believe in yourself, the process, God, and keep working, everything falls into its place.

Again – “Belief almost always seems delusional but is always the most rational thing to do”

Thank You,

Yours Loving,

Sanath Kumar Naibhi

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